I'm just not happy and I don't know how to fix it. I feel like I walk around my life is this haze of "faking it". I thought moving back to Ohio and getting a new job would fix me, wrong. We have been here for a year and I don't feel any different than I did when we first moved here. I like my job, but I am not in love with it. I want to wake up everyday excited to go to work and I have not felt that way for a long time. I am 26 years old and I have no idea what I want to do with this life I have been given and I feel like an epic failure. I have thought about going back to school but in the end I have no clue what I would even study so why waste my time and my money. I love working with college students, I love event planning, and I hate to sound like a snob but I am good at planning events. All the while, I love spending time with my family, and love being home and having free time. Changing my life to become an event planner would make for some serious life sacrifices...is that what I want. I HAVE NO IDEA!
I have actually said out loud..I could just pack up and go live with my mom. Who says that at 26? This girl does, once again FAILURE! I have always had this picture of how I thought life would be and let me just tell you, I was so wrong. This is nothing how I wanted or envisioned my life to be. Sometimes I joke and say I just need to run away and find myself, but maybe that isn't so far from the truth.
I feel lost and I have no idea what to do about it.
*This blog has always been therapy for me, when I write things out it helps me, I am not looking for people to feel sorry for me, or maybe there is someone out there who gets how I am feeling cause I am completely unable to explain it to anyone in my life I have just been MIA on here lately and thought the 1st step is admitting you have a problem, so here is it I have actually said it out loud*
*HUGS*
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you are going through a Quarter Life Crisis. I went through one, too. Shoot, sometimes, I feel like I still am, lol.
I honestly think that the 20s are the worst. When we're in our teens, we have a goal..... we're supposed to go to school and get ready for college. Then, we go to college and get our degree. Then......................?????
That's where so many of us are now. The big batch of question marks.
I wish I could say something helpful, but I really can't. Just that I think everything will work out..... for all of us :)
i think all of us, except a few lucky ones, go through this! i know i've been going through it. i'm a little better now, but still not that WOW wake up in the morning that i'd like :)
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