Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Goodbyes are hard, especially when you don't get them

It has taken me awhile to find the time energy and emotion to write this out so that it makes sense and not just ramble (which I will probably do anyways).

Last weekend my Grandma's (mom's mom) sister passed away. My Aunt Marge was the sweetest old lady in the universe. She spent the majority of my life living in Florida and then once her husband died and she was unable to take care of herself she moved back to Ohio and I am so glad she instantly became part of my family. When my grandma called to tell me what happened I was in disbelief. I guess in the back of my mind I knew she was old and not doing well but I never, ever expected her to die. I mean, we just spent Christmas day with her. Crazy!
I have spent the last week processing my feelings and it sounds so cliche but it is so important to make the best out of the life you are given and to spend every possible chance with the people that you love because you have no idea when they will be taken away from you.

I never thought the pink fluffy slippers and beaded bracelet would be the last thing my Aunt Marge gave me, I never thought when I walked out of my Grandma's Christmas afternoon, hugged her goodbye and she gave me (as she always did) a kiss on the cheek that that was the last time I would see her and hug her and tell her that I loved her. I am so sorry that I did not do it more often.

As I sit here and type through tear stricken eyes I know that at least she is not in pain and not sick anymore and I know that I will one day see her again and that she is looking down on me helping me find my way.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Happy Blog-a-versary!

I can't believe it has been a year since I started this blog, but even more so I can't believe how much my life and I have changed in the past year. New job, new home, new friends, new life. Crazy stuff.

I remember starting this blog as an outlet for me to express how I was feeling about life and to keep my friends an family up to date on the happenings of our life in Pennsylvania. Now, a year later I feel like this blog is sometimes the only "thing" that gets the whole truth out of me. Sometimes I feel like it has been easier to write how I feel than to actually say it out loud. I know our surroundings, jobs, and zip code has changed the past year but I still feel as lost as before. I try to take life day by day and week by week but still have moments when I feel like I have no idea what I am doing with my life.

I have loved blogging and really hope to continue it for a long time. I love that I now have 10 followers, and love the comments and friendships I feel like I am forming with people who I have never met. That has definitely been the most pleasant surprise from this blog.

So thanks for riding this roller coaster life of mine with me and thanks for reading!!

With love always,

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Wishful Wednesday

Wishful Wednesday

'I wish' I had the start up funds to build that company that I have always dreamt about, and it would be __________!!!

Hands down I would want to open my own event planning business, specializing in weddings but also able to do other events. I love planning stuff, and do a great deal of event planning at the college I work at but I would love to be able to do it full time with brides or corporate events and fundraisers. Or maybe own my own banquet facility to be able to see the whole process through!!

Another part of me is such a resturant kid ( my dad is in the resturant business) that I would love to run my own resturant but I know that is a way crazy life to live.

Honestly, if I had the money I think the sky would be the limit cause as everyone always tells me I want to do it ALL!!!!

Please join in all the fun and click on the button above =0)

Monday, January 11, 2010

Simply Love swap

Loves of Life

This is such a cute idea..even cuter cause I LOVE Valentine's Day. Sonja posted this today and I immediately jumped on the bandwagon and you should too.

To join in the love fun jump on over to Katie's blog to join in!

Hope everyone is staying warm!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Yes I'm back, back again

Finally, all the travelling is over! I swear I could never have a job that would require me to travel constantly. We went on the cruise then ran all around Ohio for the holidays and then I went to Vegas for a conference for work. So now I think I am sitting still for quite sometime, at least until it gets a little warmer around here.

I don't even know where to start. I feel like there is a lot that has gone on that I haven't shared. My little brother Austin broke is ankle quite severely while we were gone and had surgery the day we returned, he now has a metal plate, rods and some screws holding his bones together and will be rolling around in a wheel chair at school. Josh will be starting classes this week where I work and I am excited cause he will be able to see me throughout the day! My niece's first Christmas was wonderful, she is so stinkin' cute! I can't believe her 1st birthday is coming up soon, where has the year gone?

I feel I am doing good with my so called New Year's resolutions. My mom bought us a Wii for Christmas so we went and bought one of the work out games and I have been doing that the past few days and I am amazed that I actually feel sore from a video game, saving money is hard but I just keep reminding myself that it is all worth it in the end, and finally I am so excited to be volunteering next week for a Breast Cancer event here in town that will be selling bridal gowns at a very discounted price. I am so excited to give of myself this year because there are so many great organizations that are struggling due to the economy and even if you can not give them money, your time is just as valuable.

Be back soon with more updates on life!