Thursday, December 3, 2009

If your family is crazy and you know it clap your hands

I feel like I haven't posted in forever. I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving, mine was nothing to write about. Same old story, same old tune. To be honest, I must confess I haven't wrote anything cause life has just been crazy and I feel like between work and home and some family issues my life is a roller coaster of emotions all the while trying to get everything done for the holidays before we leave for the cruise. It has just been insanity around here. I think this trip will be really good for me cause it will give me a chance to sort out some feelings I have been having.

I love my family, please remember that 1st and foremost I would do absolutely anything for them but sometimes I feel like they aren't keeping up their end of the bargain.

For example, I waited and waited on Thanksgiving for my Dad to call to wish my a Happy Thanksgiving since I knew he wasn't coming to my grandma's for dinner, and he never called. Part of me knows this is no big deal at all not like it was my birthday but the other part of me was just thinking...just another disappointment. I want him to be better, be better for me for all the kids and for his granddaughter but I just can't seem to make that happen.

I'm not sure why I am writing this, but it has been weighing heavy on my heart for the past week and here we are a week after Thanksgiving and I still have not heard from him. I sometimes feel like if my family was a game of what doesn't belong, I would be the one that got the boot.

I hate that this blog has a tendency to be a downer, and I and truly sorry for that. This is just how it seems to be right now in my life and I am praying for a time to come that will be better.

I am just ready to go see Christmas lights at the Zoo this weekend and then next weekend watch out Caribbean here we come and I cannot wait!!


  1. the title of this post alone speaks volumes haha

  2. My dad didn't call me either. I told myself it didn't matter but deep down it did. :/